Ismael Sambra
The art of growing
wings
I always dreamed
of the sea. Even of something beyond the sea.
This is the story
of a butterfly who lived on an island where the king did not allow us
to dream of the sea. It is a common story that many know but few people
like to tell. No one wants to hear about sad stories. But I do, because
what you are about to hear is my own story.
If I hadn't had
such tiny wings, I would have flown high above the clouds, because rain
comes from clouds and the rain can break my wings. My wings are made
of many colours, and even though they may be fragile they are dusted
with a mysterious powder so that no one will touch them. I think that
everyone who has wings should take good care of them, because with broken
wings it is not possible to fly far enough to reach the place where
dreams reside.
I always said: "It is such a pity my wings are so small when the sea
is so huge!" When the voyage is difficult and long it is important to
have very good wings. When a storm comes and you only have one pair
of wings, you must grow many more. My voyage was a peculiar one, and
I had to use all the wings that cannot be seen, even the ones that sprout
from the heart. I am one of those creatures who think that having wings
is something like being free, or at least it is one way to get there.
Because I knew my journey would be a long one, I prepared myself well.
In order to reach where dreams reside one must study and work every
day and overcome all the things that hold us back, that tie us down,
that weigh heavily on us, and are stones which get in our way on the
path to freedom.
In the beginning my story was the saddest of stories, because on my
island I was held prisoner. I was imprisoned behind bars for dreaming
of the sea. I am sure that all of us like to travel and get to know
other places, other customs, other cultures, and famous cities: London,
Paris, New York, Tokyo, Istanbul. We have wings for a reason. What good
is it to grow or create wings if we are not even able to use them?
I suffered when
I was behind bars because of my wings: they yearned to fly. And do you
know how I managed with this? Can you guess why I did not perish? Or
exactly how I was able to escape?
Well, here is the secret: the more I was punished when they were trying
to break my will, the more I dreamt of the sea. I would imagine that
I was on a beach watching the waves of the sea wash back and forth.
I would imagine the wind pushing a little sailboat far away, and I swear
I even managed to smell the perfume of salt in the air, which is the
perfume carried by waves when they break on the sand.
And so I was able to resist so much suffering. That is why even when
I was behind bars, I felt free because thoughts have wings, and no king
is able to keep thoughts behind bars. This is where the king actually
made a big mistake, because he wanted all thoughts to be the same colour:
red. And this is really like cutting off someone's wings. Flowers love
their colours and live through them, and I live through flowers. Remember
this: where an idea is born a flower blooms with it, and where there
are wings there is always love.
That is why the king did not want anyone to leave the island, Cuba -
that is the name of my island - because he wanted no one to discover
the truth; but I always dreamed of the sea, even of something beyond
the sea, because to me this word means discovery, knowledge, togetherness,
and friendship. After wings, the most perfect creation is the sea. I
knew this, and behind bars I wrote down my dreams every day without
the king's soldiers seeing me. I painted the sea, a sea that was sometimes
blue like my wings, and sometimes grey like a dull mirror, which is
the colour of imprisonment. That is how it feels to be locked up just
for dreaming of the sea.
I think
that, without realizing it, I escaped through the same sea that I had
dreamed about and painted. I really don't know how it happened. Dreaming
is like flying. It seems as if I went to sea and then found myself in
a seascape in the Salon in the Art Gallery of Ontario, where excellent
painters are gathered. I had not known this was possible because the
king of my island, who is called Tyrant, says the sea is simply not
allowed. But this Salon is filled with ancient stories, and with artists
who loved to create wings with their brushes, wings that exist in every
painting even though some people cannot see them.
Artists
also have wings. Look at John A. Hammond's Bay of Fundy with
its silent boats on still waters, or look at Paul Peel's Mother and
Child, The Tired Model and Adoration. It seems as
if they are alive, as if they speak to us in forms and colours. As you
can see, artists can speak with these greatest of wings. I say that
not because I myself am an artist but because I was a prisoner on my
island, and because I learned that freedom is the most accomplished
and beloved of arts. I love harmony and truth as much as I love flowers
and this prosperous country. Everyone on my island, Cuba, sometimes
dreamed of this place, a country so full of the rivers, snow, lakes
and sea, which are in the paintings in front of you. Take good care
of all these things, and remember my story: It is the story of how to
grow wings.
Come, follow me onto this path, because I want to talk to you about
my island, Cuba, which is a country I love, a land where there are always
flowers and sun, a place you can get to know and paint, a country where
everyone knows the art of creation, of growing wings, even though a
tyrant still won't allow us to dream of the sea.
Translated from
the Spanish by Elysa MartÌnez.